Whatever

      I have decided to write a blog, they say it helps with stress, and my niece reccomended it for me. PLEASE don't think this is about you. I just need to release, and I am praying this helps. Anyway, here we go.                                                                                                                      I am sitting here wondering why everytime I think everything will be alright the bottom falls out again.  All I do everyday is worry, and it is making me older than I should be. If I try to help, people get mad, if I don't help, the people that want help get mad. They say God wont give you more than you can handle, I think I have reached the top, nope, can't handle anymore.
    When I had children, they said if you make there childhood just a little better than your's you have done a good job. Anyone that knows me, and knows about my life, knows that I have succeeded in that. How I made it out alive and kind of sane shocks me.  What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. OK then.
    I have found that I am sad alot, that I cry alot,  and I don't like it, maybe I need meds and I am not as sane as I want to think I am. I try to be a good person and follow all the rules, I love God with all my heart, but I am really tired of feeling this way.
      Anyway, thank you for letting me rant, remember, this isn't about anyone, I am just seeing if this helps me.